Post by kaihime on Aug 21, 2010 12:26:22 GMT
As i find the day draws near
The marker for my 18th year
I think about you and our time spent
So many mistakes of which i wish to repent
Time tore us apart from one another
Like two kids fighting by their mother
How i wish our paths had not split so far apart
Shattered into different worlds as pain wracked my heart
The day finally came when our paths crossed once more
I found you behind the counter at a local subway store
Then and there i felt a smile crawl across my stiffened face
If only you knew you were my saving grace
The dull existence i had lived now seemed less bland
After that one day my life seemed so grand
But as my feelings were realised within my mind
I saw that this life i had fallen for was not so kind
As i felt these feelings well within me
Of a kind i never thought would be
My life had taught me many things through the years
Most had been learnt through a cloud of tears
Never trust, never open your heart to another
The only love you need can come from your mother
But still i ached to be held by you
These feelings i realised to be true
I had opened myself, my heart to you without knowing
I struggled ot pretend, to stop these feelings from showing
Convinced that i was not worthy to be by your side
I continued to hide my way of life, continued to hide
I felt that i was not meant to be loved by a man
The examples in life that should have shown me i can
Fell short, they left time and again
Each time however i felt much less pain
Now it happens, i do not care
But if i think of you not being there
I feel my eyes begin to water and my heart begin to ache
These feelings of mine for you i know are not fake
Noone else have i cared for so much that has not been blood
As i heard that you were in love, my tears released as a flood
Part of me was so happy for you
As i cried i had no idea what to do
I felt the courage begin to burn inside
Acting while i could upon it i took a ride
I told you how i felt, hoping it would help me deal
My heart was broken and i needed help to heal
You told me that you were sorry
That you were full of worry
Hoping you had not led me on someway
I told you it was simply me, not knowing what to say
My world was crumbling down my heart now resting in two
The rare love i feel for you
Was not and never would be felt for me
Once again i had been shown that loved i would never be
Hearing you say that friends we would remain
Was the only thing that kept me sane
I swallowed my pain so that i may be that friend
Nothing would have hurt me more than for that to end
But never can i seem to let myself forget
Hearing you say you loved her and that your heart was set
Even now when i look upon your face
I fight to hide the feelings, not to show a trace
Easier it might be, not to see or talk to you now
But that is not an option that my heart would allow
Being your friend means the world to me
If that was to go, happy i would never be
I wish that these feelings were not mine alone
But these words are not to be carelessly thrown
So never shall they be spoken, so our bond never shatters
I will not bother you with them, your happiness is all that matters
The marker for my 18th year
I think about you and our time spent
So many mistakes of which i wish to repent
Time tore us apart from one another
Like two kids fighting by their mother
How i wish our paths had not split so far apart
Shattered into different worlds as pain wracked my heart
The day finally came when our paths crossed once more
I found you behind the counter at a local subway store
Then and there i felt a smile crawl across my stiffened face
If only you knew you were my saving grace
The dull existence i had lived now seemed less bland
After that one day my life seemed so grand
But as my feelings were realised within my mind
I saw that this life i had fallen for was not so kind
As i felt these feelings well within me
Of a kind i never thought would be
My life had taught me many things through the years
Most had been learnt through a cloud of tears
Never trust, never open your heart to another
The only love you need can come from your mother
But still i ached to be held by you
These feelings i realised to be true
I had opened myself, my heart to you without knowing
I struggled ot pretend, to stop these feelings from showing
Convinced that i was not worthy to be by your side
I continued to hide my way of life, continued to hide
I felt that i was not meant to be loved by a man
The examples in life that should have shown me i can
Fell short, they left time and again
Each time however i felt much less pain
Now it happens, i do not care
But if i think of you not being there
I feel my eyes begin to water and my heart begin to ache
These feelings of mine for you i know are not fake
Noone else have i cared for so much that has not been blood
As i heard that you were in love, my tears released as a flood
Part of me was so happy for you
As i cried i had no idea what to do
I felt the courage begin to burn inside
Acting while i could upon it i took a ride
I told you how i felt, hoping it would help me deal
My heart was broken and i needed help to heal
You told me that you were sorry
That you were full of worry
Hoping you had not led me on someway
I told you it was simply me, not knowing what to say
My world was crumbling down my heart now resting in two
The rare love i feel for you
Was not and never would be felt for me
Once again i had been shown that loved i would never be
Hearing you say that friends we would remain
Was the only thing that kept me sane
I swallowed my pain so that i may be that friend
Nothing would have hurt me more than for that to end
But never can i seem to let myself forget
Hearing you say you loved her and that your heart was set
Even now when i look upon your face
I fight to hide the feelings, not to show a trace
Easier it might be, not to see or talk to you now
But that is not an option that my heart would allow
Being your friend means the world to me
If that was to go, happy i would never be
I wish that these feelings were not mine alone
But these words are not to be carelessly thrown
So never shall they be spoken, so our bond never shatters
I will not bother you with them, your happiness is all that matters
Admittedly I prefer shorter poems but no its really nice 
